closing my blog. i think i was too ignorant and oblivious of what was going on around me. i was in my own world.

Friday, August 6, 2004 04:54 p.m.

You are Green Pegasus, who tends to give an impression of being proud and difficult person to get to know.
But you can be really friendly and affectionate to those people you trust.
You are quick minded and can act audaciously.
You are a person who would follow ideals with passion.
You possess sensitivity and flashes.
You can make calm calculation and come up with objective theory.
You are also tactful negotiator.
You can be rather strong headed, but really, you are naturally a good person and natured.
You can flirt to attract men to you.
You are woman of both brains and beauty.
You enjoy the process of creating things.
You will concentrate hard and will put great effort while tackling it, but once finished you can easily lose interest.
You hand over your accomplishments to others, and then start creating new one again.
Although you can be argumentative, you dislike complicated matters.
Therefore you tend to dispose a matter easily.
You dislike ordinary things, and will end up doing things that surprise people.
You will not turn out an ordinary housewife.
You should stay working in an environment where you can enjoy your freedom.
Your down-to-earth type of character attracts lots of men.
But because you have high ideals, you tend to lose the opportunity, and get passed the marriage age.

got this from wen's blog. do the thing here.
mine's kinda true. not all though.

Friday, August 6, 2004 04:37 p.m.

i want to get more skirts, shoes, another adidas jacket(i want the red one), and tops. wonder when i can go shopping again.

asked my mum if i can go back to singapore in december. she said it all depends on how my dad's business is going. aahhhh.
but i'll want to spend christmas here. so fun. i want to build a snowman.

claire, COME ONLINE!

Thursday, August 5, 2004 04:56 p.m.

feel much better after reading claire's mail and talking to ben this morning. i needed someone to talk to i guess.
yew teng is funny. he got my email address from alex and added me on msn. he asked me whether i'm claire or szuyu. i said i'm claire and he believed. and what's really funny is that i had my photo on my msn display. haha. he's blind.
he kept calling 'claire' a bird. and asked me to fly away when i was going offline. so i said, "ok i will, but i'm flying WITHOUT WINGS."
i thought that was funny but he said i've got a weird sense of humour. haha.

my cousin said she'll get me the latest jay chou cd.
i love weekends. but this weekend i've gotta start working on my college application.

Wednesday, August 4, 2004 06:18 p.m.

aahhhhh. i feel really horrible. i think i'm damn useless. i dont want to go for class. sigh.
the worst part is that i cant even talk to anyone about it. hansen tan, where are you when i need you? you're the only person i can talk to now. come online, please?

Tuesday, August 3, 2004 04:53 p.m.

uploaded photos we took before we went rouge in the 'friends' album. and a few damn ugly photos in the 'america' album.

Tuesday, August 3, 2004 09:29 a.m.

i dont know what's up with americans. they LOVE mowing their lawns. i want to kill them all.

Monday, August 2, 2004 10:12 p.m.

shit. diet plan not working. i'm still eating damn a lot.
i love skirts. i want to buy more skirts. but i need to lose weight first.

Monday, August 2, 2004 05:17 p.m.

i think it's damn difficult to strike up a conversation. i am really miss anti-social. i wonder how i became friends with claire. i think she's the only person in cj who i talked to first. claire said she thought i was scary though. that's damn funny.

although claire and rachel wont be in singapore next year, i'll still go back to singapore to visit benita and seetoh. haha.

Sunday, August 1, 2004 03:39 p.m.

i believe i have mastered the arts of picking out peas and carrots from fried rice, and tao gei from a huge plate of noodles. my cousin's amazed by my speed.

Sunday, August 1, 2004 01:37 p.m.

i dont know what's going on. all i can say is i dont smoke and i dont ALWAYS go clubbing. dont believe me? there's nothing i can do.
but it's disappointing that even friends who were close to me believes this crap.

Saturday, July 31, 2004 12:06 p.m.

my cousin came over yesterday just to see me register for SAT and TOEFL. haha. that's because i havent been doing anything that brings me at least a step closer to getting into a college.
and i didnt know TOEFL is sooo expensive. it's 130USD. wow. i should go make tests like that too.

my cousins, my brother and i went to play pool yesterday. it's fun! but damn expensive. felt so bad because my cousin paid for it.

Friday, July 30, 2004 05:21 p.m.

went to manhattan again. this time we went to central park. it's a really nice place to cycle and blade.
this girl came over and wanted to interview us for this political magazine. my cousins and i ran away. they must think we are retarded. ahaha. but who will know politics? not me definitely. oh and they had cameras and everything. wont want to appear on tv.

uploaded more photos. look at the naked cowboy. he's supposed to be famous in NYC.

Thursday, July 29, 2004 07:00 p.m.

i have this sudden urge to pierce my ears again. i want to pierce two more holes on my right ear and one more on my left. but there's no one i can go with.

Wednesday, July 28, 2004 09:51 p.m.

my english teacher was telling us her theory of why the new SAT came about. she said she read in an article that asians in america are surpassing all the other ethnic groups here. they are at the top for college entrance.
so, they made use of our weakness, which is writing and grammar. i thought it did make sense. my grammar is really bad. haha.

my aunt and cousin were staring out of the window while i was watching tv. and because i live on the second floor, i can see what the people living across are doing.
the three of us stood by the window, looking at what those people were doing. we saw a kid next door playing with his bubble gun alone. i kept waving to him. took him so long to wave back. but he's cute! haha.
and there were two ang moh kids across. they took their binoculars out to spy on us!!! ahahahaha. ok it wasnt exactly spying because we saw them. haha. they realised we were staring so they closed their blinds. damn funny.

went to staples just now. i've never seen that much stationery at one go. my mum went crazy. or so i think.
she bought like 20 stacks of foolscap paper. it was on sale. it only cost 19 cents. but still....
paper, anyone?

Tuesday, July 27, 2004 11:14 a.m.

omg. sophie and terence told me sth damn funny. but scary too.
this happened before i left. i made claire, terence and ben play tennis with me a day before their GP paper.
according to them, brother paul announced their names in front of the j2s(but didnt mention me because he doesnt remember my name).
this is freaky. how did anyone find out? who's reading our blogs?

Tuesday, July 27, 2004 02:20 a.m.

my cousins are going to the casino tmr. too bad i cant go.
i feel that i havent enjoyed any privileges an 18-year-old should enjoy. i wish i'm 21 so i can gamble but on the other hand i dont want to be old.
my english teacher made me realise that there are so much intersting stuff going on in the world, waiting for me to discover. i might be going crazy. have this sudden craving for intersting information. tell me sth inetersting!

my old email increased in size! it's now 2000mb. haha. so dont mail me at that spastic new email anymore. still email me at stardust1710@hotmail.com

Sunday, July 25, 2004 11:51 p.m.

i feel really stupid. i think claire is right. i'm becoming dumber.
i never forwarded mails. but just now my cousin told me that he needs to forward mails to people. each mail worths 250 bucks. so i got excited and i wanted it too.
after i sent it to most people on my list, my cousin told me his friend just told him it was a scam. ahahaha. i as laughing like crazy because i just sent it. greed overcame me.

Sunday, July 25, 2004 04:32 p.m.

what's happening to singapore? the whole world is leaving. even if i do go back, i wont even see claire and rachel anymore. hais. how to ever meet up like that?

i had this dream. i hope that when i'm taking the plane alone, there'll be this nice and cute guy sitting beside me and we can talk on the 18 hour flight. then i wont be that bored. haha.
i think too much? maybe.

Sunday, July 25, 2004 10:31 a.m.

had wendy's for lunch yesterday. bet my cousin thought i was retarded. cus i was so excited! ahaha. the burger is alright. i love the chicken nuggets!! and they have chilli soup?! how weird.

we saw this fast food restaurant called white castle. i asked my cousin if it's nice, he said it's a horrible place because their burgers are tiny and they make you fart. ahaha. but they only cost 50 cents.
there's this new movie coming out starring one asian guy and one indian guy. they work at white castle i think. looks damn funny.

uploaded more photos in the america album.

Thursday, July 22, 2004 09:55 p.m.

i am growing fat! gained 2kg. i'm on diet again. i ran 4 rounds around the track just now. damn tiring. haha.
went to look at fireflies again. whoa. it's really beautiful! they looked like christmas lights, coming on and going off alternately. and there were lots of them! tried to capture them on camera but i couldnt.

went to test for tuberculosis today. or is it to test whether i'm immune? no idea. i hate injections. have to go back on saturday to check if i need another jab. hais. hope not.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004 08:34 p.m.

i'm damn frustrated and disconsolated. i feel that i'm not in control of my life. i hate living with my relatives here constantly breathing down my neck.
so, i did something stupid because i needed a change. i cut my hair MYSELF. it's damn horrible. and i'm gonna dye my hair again later.
i'm dying here. i miss singapore!!!!

Monday, July 19, 2004 09:24 p.m.

my cousin is crazy. during the weekend, we went to his house to play with the rifle again.
he took out the watches our aunt bought him and his wife, and started shooting it. each of those watched cost 200USD!! omg. if i knew, i would grab it before it's in pieces and sell it on ebay or sth.
i asked him why did he shoot it he said he thinks it's fake and also it's ugly. but it has a warranty card and my aunt left the price tag on.

i kinda ironed my fingers just now. hurts real bad. i didnt exactly iron it actually.
the container where you fill water in fell out, so i tried to push it back. i forgot the iron was still hot, so i kinda pressed my fingers onto the metal piece(whatever you call that) while pushing the container in. so now there are three lines on my fingers and it feels kinda numb.

my cousin and his friend went to watch i,robot the other day. he asked me if i wanted to go but i said no because i thought the show was stupid. but he said it's damn good. now i regret. if only i went!!

terence told me they recently got back a physical geog test which i did too. he said i scored 6/25 and he wants to mail it to me because miss ng wrote more than i did on the paper. he thinks it's funny. haha. quite lar.

Saturday, July 17, 2004 01:06 a.m.

recently they've been showing the selections for the olympics team. it's really interesting. was watching the track and field one. those women run 10km under 32mins!!
and there was the decathlon. i admire those people. they are really amazing. how can one be above average for 10 events? wow.

Tuesday, July 13, 2004 05:46 p.m.

it's so freaking cold recently. been raining for the past two days.

i just realised there are weirdos in my class. there's this guy who sits beside me who's in some math team in school. everytime he does his work he'll be so panicky and try to do it super fast like he's in some competition. and he will always look over to my side to see where i'm at. so annoying!!!
and this other guy slammed all his books on the floor and started throwing things everywhere just because he didnt do well for his vocabulary quiz. damn freaky.

my english teacher is SUPER funny. everytime when someone's phone goes off, she'll start dancing to the ringtone. haha.
she told some guy to meet her after class because he scored really low for the quiz. she was speaking like how the blacks do and made it sound like she wanted to pick a fight.
then she was like, "you wont want china and the african countries to go to war just because of you right?" haha. thought it was funny.